Alright, lets see...I was actually on someone else's website and well, it reminded me of a few things...

I still haven't figured out where I fit in and it is pissing me off. I mean I guess I don't really want to fit in anywhere. I don't like to do the whole "get your nails done, do your hair, and look pretty thing" as a girl. I mean I don't have a problem with girls that do, do that but I am just not that person. I don't like getting up early to get dressed up, I don't like putting on a lot of make-up to get guys. I don't like to go out drinking and to parties and for some reason people find that weird.

I don't know exactly who I am yet but I know I am trying to find out. I have written so many pages of just random thoughts and writings just finding myself frustrated because my hand starts cramping up before I am done with the ideas in my head.

I can't seem to agree with what my parents believe and that is going to kill them when they find out. I mean I may just sound like a teenager who is confused but it is more then that, I mean even as an adult, if you ask many of them who they are they just stare at you as if you have asked them a foreign question. Are we really becoming so self absorbed in our lives that we forget to take time out and just think....and everything or nothing at all?

When I see people caught up with their daily lives I just wonder what is going on in their heads and how can they never stop to admire someone who maybe smiled at them and they didn't notice. People seem to have forgotten to acknowledge the little things. I know I am jumping topics here...but there is just a lot on my mind. I don't know what to tell people.

They come up to me and expect me to know it all. People from college just assume that I am a straight A student when I only have a 2.8 gpa. I know its bad but I just don't like to absorb myself into some of the things that are taught. I do highly recommend that people go to college it opens up your mind, but I just don't seem to be doing well in it thats all. I mean does that make me stupid?

The labels and the questions just never end. But at least I notice them...unlike those who just ignore them.